ok i kept up with my "promise" and came to blog OFTEN. haha.


well, today was a short day for me. i woke up at around noon. but i chose not to have lunch and continue to sleep until 3pm or so. lol. i super tired. although i slept at around 12am. (which can be considered early compared to other days)

anyways, i woke and have some snacks and then practised a little bit of piano. then played audition until 4pm. and and and. i went to bathe and change and got ready to go my uncle's place. cause it's my baby god brother's birthday. (my little cousin actually)
HAPPY 1 YEAR OLD MY DEAR BABY! haha. he's so damn cute! but he cried when he woke up just now. haha. crying on his first birthday. well, had buffet blah blah. his birthday cake is mickey! the picture is in my phone. will post it up in the next post ba. haha.
my brother went off first cause it's his gf's birthday too. he going to celebrate with her. so sweet. lol. and my parents going to attend a dinner too. so my family went home early.


played audi when i reached home and and and. i won lvl 20 de players. haha. i think im really pro! joking. ok larx. dont haolian. but im really happy to win the lvl 20 de. (:



ok. i sound so happy but i really wanna scream now! haix. to say the truth im really SCARED! ah. i dont know where to start!
tell me how am i supposed to tell you:
pls stop contacting me, pls stop treating me like your gf, pls stop thinking that i like you too!
and how am i supposed to tell you, that you dont stand a chance. not even 1%. im not happy with you. i know cause we tried out before. no matter how good you treat me im not happy with you. you're just a substitute. i dont want to play with you that's why i dont want to accept you. why dont you understand? i dont want to hurt you anymore. you're hurting yourself cause you're treating me like your gf trying to control me and stuffs.
i wanna make myself clear! i wanna say im single now! you have no authority to control me or whatever shit! even if you're my bf, i have the rights to go out with my friends! but you're nothing! nothing but a friend to me, yet you tell me you hate me doing this you hate me doing that. you worry about this you worry about that. WHERE'S MY FREEDOM? stop asking me about my life and all! i dont want to let you know. i dont feel like it. that way you're pestering me makes me feel even more irritated and detest you more and more!
can you stop giving your opinions too?? our taste are different. totally different. some things you dont like i like. but you cant stop me from wanting to buy or wanting to do the stuffs! you cant change me. i like being myself now. how many times must i tell you that i dont like you i never like you and that i will never ever fall in love with you. im already trying my best to avoid you and all. you make it sound as if we're already married yet i dont want to reply your smses or talk to you in msn! GIVE UP PLS! can? stop worrying about me. im 16 already! turning 17 this year. im big enough. i dont need anyone to worry. and even if i do. it'll be my family whom i need. not you. i dont even have any rights to talk to guys and i'll have to report to you everyday what i do. what im going to do. where i go whatever. EVERYTHING! stop controlling my life!
STOP BUGGING ME!
we can be good friends but you making things conplicated and im starting to hate you. i really do. when will you get lost? just go away and leave me alone. true enough. when you sms me that i dont want be friends already. i wanted to reply YES. i dont think i need a friend like you. friends are those who listen and help and have fun together. maybe you're OVERhelping me. you dont listen to me. you expect me to listen to you and do anything you want me too. even if we're really together, i have my own opinions and my own decisions too. you dont call the shot.

just tell me. what am i supposed to do!! i've already make myself very clear to you but you just so.. argh!



im so irritated! well, a special part for my didi.
im not going to kill you ok? im a very good jie jie so stop bullying me! i'll miss you if you miss me too. haha. ok, we'll chat in msn. (: